Z goes, Z comes back

From last week... 

I'm in Pembrokeshire at the caravan this week.  It's not been easy to carve out a whole week, but there's no point in coming for much less time.  It's the best part of 400 miles and, including stopping to see friends in Reading on the way, the journey took me nearly 9 hours.  Tim and I used to stop at his house for the night on each leg and I sometimes stay with Publog John, near Leicester, if I go that way, but it gives me more time here if I just keep driving and get here in one day.

The weather is iffy, but one always expects that in Wales.  It rarely rains for the whole day and often rains at night, so I can always do what I want to.  What I'll want to do in the future about the caravan is something I need to think about.  Since I didn't have time to visit at all, last year, this week is a chance to resettle myself.  I'm hoping to come back twice more during the year.  I know it would be much more sensible to give it up.  Sell the caravan and let go of the lease.  I don't know if I'm ready yet.  I can't justify the expense, which has increased considerably, by 15% since last year, but it's somewhere that really matters to me.

However, that's the thought that's mulling away quietly at the back of my mind.  For now, I'm just sleeping a lot and enjoying the peace.  

Luckily, I had the good sense to ask Henry to get the caravan washed outside and the patio cleared of weeds.  Indoors, it's grubby.  I've bought rubber gloves and, this afternoon, I'll spend time washing everywhere.  Unfortunately, I can't persuade the water heater to get going - the spark isn't working.  So I suspect I'll have to get it looked at.  

This week, now I'm home again...

I did have to get the man in, who got the water heater going in no time, but I couldn't have done it myself.  I also have left the caravan very clean, including washing the carpet again, which I did two years ago and haven't dirtied myself.  Friends of friends used it twice (that is, different people each time), which they were welcome to, at no charge, but I think the last people snacked in front of the tv and were pretty casual about dropping greasy snacks.  They were equally casual about not washing the kitchen floor and not bothering to lift the seat when they cleaned the toilet, I discovered.  They don't even know me and it was a free holiday!

I had a really lovely break, all the same.  I slept amazingly well, walked quite a lot, didn't drink much (less than I do at home, that is) and I felt very relaxed.  I called on a friend for lunch on the way home, then stopped to pick up china for the auction.  The two delays meant that I hit traffic on the M25 - not literally, though one reason for slow progress was because of a collision ahead, which meant that two lanes were closed for several miles.  I arrived home about 7.20pm, dead tired, having left the caravan at 9.30.  Wink had dinner ready for me, though I couldn't eat as much as I'd have liked to and then went straight to bed.  

A friend called round for coffee, which turned into lunch too and we had a long chat about all sorts of things, predominately art.  She is an artist, which I'm not but our different, though complementary viewpoints, interested both of us.  It was great to have a fairly deep discussion and I think we both took quite a lot away from it.  It's almost made me want to take up drawing again - and I showed her my drawing of my hand and of the chair, which some of you may remember that I bravely posted, several years ago.

Pride turned up after the fall

 The temperature has dropped considerably since the weekend.  Warm and sunny, now cold enough for me to consider an extra jumper - which I'll go upstairs and get, in a minute.  I miss the Aga, which is switched down to the minimum for the summer.  I could turn it up, but there's really no need, much as I'd like to.  I have dough proving in the kitchen as the children ate all the bread yesterday except for one slice, which I toasted for breakfast this morning.  I was indulgent.  Usually, I have toast and marmite (I have several different breakfasts, this is one of them) but today, I had half the slice with marmite and the rest with marmalade.  I wonder if I'll bother to make marmalade again.  I'm still slowly ploughing my way through the last batch from at least 5 years ago.  I have almost stopped making jams and relishes too, since Tim died, but they keep a long time, so I'm still eating those too.  The only ones I have made have been the tomato relish - not quite a chutney, it's not cooked for so long and can be eaten as soon as it's cooked, it doesn't need to mature in the jar - and the wonderful chilli relish that all the family loves, so I usually give each a jar at Christmastime.  Didn't get around to it last year, it does take a long time to make as the chillis need to be sliced by hand.  But at least I make bread.  I am having an Indian meal tonight, so considered making chapatis or naan bread, but realised they're both much easier in the Aga, so I won't bother.  I haven't cooked rice on the electric rings very often - again, so very easy in the Aga - so that may not happen either.  I realise that a lot of my cooking is done simply so that I can warm up by the cooker.  There just isn't the same incentive in the summer.

A large fly is buzzing round the room, trying to get out of the window.  I've opened a window for it, letting the cold air in, but it ignores it, trying every other window instead.  I know people like that, too.  

I was awake in time for the dawn chorus today (no, I didn't get up, bed was warmer) and, half an hour later, realised that there was just birdsong.  That is, a bird or a few were singing, but not the whole range of them.  I wonder what goes through their heads?  I'd woken earlier too, a while after midnight and, luckily before I went back to sleep, Eloise cat jumped on the bed, or rather, she jumped at it and missed.  I peered from under the bedclothes in time to see her walking out of the room as if that was exactly what she meant to do.  Poor cat, she misjudged the jump in the dark (it's a fairly high bed) and her pride wouldn't let her take a second attempt.  Later, once I was awake for good, she jumped back up (it was light by then) and had a long drink of Buxton water.  She has been drinking so much more, since I started to buy bottled water for her.

I'll go upstairs now and move the chaise longue to the foot of the bed, take a fresh bottle of water for her and get a cardi.  First, I'll close the window, as the officious fly has finally found its way outside.

The lark descending

 Ro and his children came over today.  They are a delight, eat whatever is put in front of them, without being greedy or picky and are always good humoured.  They're a credit to both their parents, who co-parent impeccably, despite their divorce.  

Rufus will be 11 next month.  Perdita was 6 in January.  Within a week, she managed to knock out both her front teeth, which was pretty alarming for Ronan, who was in charge both times.  The first tooth went when she was at school and fell off the climbing frame - or something like that.  When Ro arrived to pick her up, there was a lot of blood.  Second tooth went at his house, when the children were upstairs.  They weren't fighting exactly, it seems that Rufus sneaked up and grabbed her from behind, she swung a fist - and hit herself in the mouth.  Again, blood.  Perdita seemed less upset than he was, but they're all over that now and she's proud of her massive gap.  When they wanted a snack this afternoon, I offered an apple, cut up and she said quite casually that cut up would be good as she can't bite apples.

Anyway, it's now 7.30pm and the wonder is that I'm not exhausted already.  This morning, I woke up around 5.45, though I jolly well didn't get up then.  I'm not giving up my owl identity without a fight. I listened to the dawn chorus and read a book until a reasonable hour, around half past seven.  Even at that, I was ready for mid-morning coffee by 9.  Early mornings are great in theory, but they really mess up the day.

I made lasagne for lunch and, because we'd picked up new-laid eggs, that's what they had for their tea.  Rufus chose a fried egg sandwich and Perdita wanted dippy eggs with toast though, at their father's suggestion, I fried those too so she didn't have to manage an egg cup.  All four eggs had suitably runny yolks and both plates were cleared.  I'd absent-mindedly put butter in a saucepan rather than a frying pan, so I used it to make scrambled eggs for me.  I used rather more butter than I'd normally have, which added nicely to flavour and texture.  It made me think of Swallows and Amazons, where they called scrambled eggs "buttered eggs."  They were.