Z is fine, whatever the doctor thinks

I finally sat down at my elderly desktop computer and found that there are literally dozens of pages in Safari that are open but empty.  I can only think that the cat has tried to blog and didn't quite manage it.  I've closed at least 20 of them, but there's a long way to go and the dear old Mac is slow, nowadays, even just shutting something.  

Things are all right, or possibly not.  Wink and I spend time together bemoaning the ageing process.  I'm still on iron tablets and am due another blood test tomorrow, to see if there's progress.  Last time, there was and there was no blood where there had no business to be blood, but my very nice doctor clearly isn't happy.  He has a feeling.  And, very sensibly, he's acting on that feeling, which I can only applaud, at least in theory.  I don't think he's right, because there's no blood where there shouldn't be (which would be the only symptom apart from anaemia) and I feel absolutely well, with more verve (even allowing for the enervating effect of many weeks of heatwave) than I did have before the iron.  I don't think I would if his alternative suggestion is the case, which leaves me, on a balance of probabilities, thinking I'm probably okay.  But he's right to check.  So I've been referred for a combined gastroscopy and colonoscopy (Ro and I have giggled about being skewered from both ends, because you've got to laugh, innit?) which frankly sounds ghastly.  I have to drink something the night before and am darkly warned to stay near the lavatory, not to travel and, well, just park myself by the loo or on the loo until I'm emptier than I've ever been in my life, and then don't eat anything.  I haven't got a date for this yet, but Lovely Dilly and Al have assured me that they will take me (I suspect they'll be at work and I don't want them to take time off, but we'll see how that goes.  Plan B is Ronan, who lives close to the hospital).

An unrelated but dismal other medical thing was a gumboil.  Very unfortunately, I've got an infection that can only be cleared up temporarily - there is nothing wrong with the tooth, which is the molar next to the wisdom tooth, bottom left, but I've got to have it out.  The appointment for that is just before the bank holiday weekend.  Ro had to have a wisdom tooth out a few years ago, for a similar reason and he's warned me what to expect.  It's not nice - the extraction itself is the least of it.  I'll have a difficult week or so afterwards.  Eat well before you come in, the receptionist said kindly, when I was making the appointment.  So I had a week of antibiotics to help suppress the infection - I was lucky (I'll find luck wherever I go, somehow) that the pus - sorry, I shuddered too - has been draining downwards into my gum, otherwise I'd have been in a lot of pain.  It's almost as unpleasant to consider this infection draining into my poor jaw.  But at least I feel nothing.

You think this is enough?  My lovely sister Wink is about to have a breathing test at the hospital, because she's having problems.  The lung guy assures her it isn't cancer.  The heart guy assures her it isn't heart failure.  What it's likely to be is a blockage in an artery, so she's also booked for an angiogram.  This is three days after my tooth extraction, so I'll be hungry but able to drive.

Weeza and co had a lovely holiday and all went well with Wink, Izzy the dog and the house.  We didn't do the jollies we'd planned because it was just too hot, but we went out for lunch instead and discovered a splendid pub that we will visit again, by the river in Coltishall.

I've mostly been relaxing, because of the heat.  My watch tells me that I'm taking less exercise than a year ago.  Well yes, that's because of the heat and it's actual NHS advice.  People die of this!  I'm old enough to give myself leeway.  I'd wanted to go to London for various exhibitions, but they have to wait.  No unnecessary journeys.  But I am off to the caravan on Friday, because I've got things to do there.  Mostly packing up, which I'm really sad about but I console myself with the thousands of pounds I'll save that I can do something else with.  I don't save for my old age any longer, I'm already there.

I've written more than enough, but there's a lot still to say.  So, after a rather depressing to read post - I'm fine, genuinely, it's just life - I'll have a mixture next time.  Which in theory will be tomorrow, but I'm in the middle of photographing china, which also involves describing and checking for damage, so takes as many hours as I can bear to spend.  

Finally signed in

 I’m writing on my phone. I can’t sign in on the laptop. It’s as if the powers don’t like bloggers any more. 

I went to the caravan in Wales and have confirmed that I’ll give it up at the end of the season. Being without internet, I kept a journal but it rambled somewhat - it’s one thing to write daily and post it, but several days of it just seems indulgent. 

I’ve been dutifully swallowing iron pills, have had another blood test and the doctor is due to phone tomorrow. 

Last Saturday, I visited the London flat, which the lovely tenants vacated the day before, as they were returning to Australia. By now, it should have been redecorated and a few repairs made, ready for the new tenants tomorrow. 

I also did my annual accounts and gave them to my accountant today. 

What else I’ve done has been to gather together nearly all the china for the next auction - a few other items booked in. 

When it’s all written down, it looks as if I’ve got a lot done. I suppose I have. 

Wink is house/dog sitting for Weeza and co, who are on holiday. We’ll have a day out together soon. 

Blogger nanny knows nothing

 I'm having problems with Blogger.  I much preferred to use the blog on my own domain, but I had a huge amount of difficulty with it last year and I've simply given up.  It's all complicated and it was because *they* messed up and the person I managed to speak to gave me incorrect information, because clearly he didn't understand the problem and didn't realise he didn't, so didn't kick it up to the next level.  Eventually, after an hour on the phone on another occasion, I got a woman who did understand, sorted it out from her end - but then I was removed from the sign in page.  At that point, I came back to Blogger.  At least, as I've paid, the blog is there.  I had it for several years and don't want to lose it.

Anyway, for an unknown reason, Blogger has my default email wrong (though only here) - it's a real address but not the one the blog is linked to.  This is why, sometimes, when I answer comments, it's under a different address.  Just going from the blog to the comment signs me out of the correct account.  But, for the last couple of days, I've been unable to change it.  I'm only able to post at all because I go back in 'history' to the post edit page.  If you leave a comment and it doesn't appear, it's because I'm having such difficulty approving it.

I've a horrible feeling I'm going to have to speak to someone.

Meanwhile, today is a computer day, in the work sense.  That, of course, is why I'm writing here instead of doing the work.  Maybe coffee will help.  

Since the hot weather started, caffeine hasn't been part of my life, for the most part.  I've just been drinking a lot of water with a great deal of ice and slices of cucumber and lemon.  It's getting boring, to be frank, but what else to do?  Everything else is too hot or too sweet or, in the case of alcohol during the day, I don't want it and it's too strong for the weather.  Today, the temperature is due to rise to a mere 24º (75º) so perhaps a nice, strong cup of black coffee will start professional Z off.

The other nuisance with Blogger is that it insists on putting my name.  Here, I am Z and always have been.  Autobuggerup repeatedly changes it.  I delete superfluous letters and Blanny tells me it knows best.  I have to type the next word and then go back and change it again.  I'm reasonably sure I can sign in to the correct account on my old computer, possibly on my phone too, so I trust I won't disappear again.

Z muses

 It's a funny thing.  When I was having tests,  I was more concerned about the nuisance of possibly having to rearrange things than anything else.  There are a number of things every single week from now until the end of the year, and quite a lot after that.  Anyway, it seems probable that my nice white blood cells are successfully fighting some viral infection and that is most likely to have skewed the red blood cells.  So I'm being prescribed iron tablets and am to be given another blood test in three weeks' time.  I've been extremely impressed by the GP practice and the two doctors I've spoken to/seen.  

Wink and I have been talking about being too busy for a while.  It's not just being busy, it's the structure of it.  Too many things that happen every week or every month and having to fit in extras where we can, then more crops up and we keep on juggling our time.  We don't see a way out of it.  We'd like to be able to be spontaneous, but it's a matter of looking in the diary and noting a day or two, three weeks hence, when we have the opportunity for spontaneity. That isn't being spontaneous, is it?  

Anyway, at least tomorrow I'm free until 6 o'clock, when we're going to the local theatre for dinner before a film.  Lovely, I can catch up with paperwork.

Z plans to relax

 I'm trying to clear the decks of paperwork over the next week or so, to take July off as much as I can.  Once August comes, I'll be working on the auction catalogue, which takes weeks, so this is my best chance.  

It's hot out there, but not in the house.  There is only one window that faces south and the main rooms are west-facing, with one east and west and the other being east and south.  So it's never oppressively hot, unless I've forgotten to open my bedroom window in the evening for an hour or two before bed.  

I spend my early morning and evening time listening to birdsong.  I'm having another go at identifying different birds - I don't have a very good ear for it, but have realised how many different ones we have.  A linnet, for instance.  I've never seen one in the garden, but according to Merlin, it's out there.  I was told, by the guys who came to inspect the bells at the church, that jackdaws had been nesting in the church tower, which surprised me as I've never noticed any, but yes, now I know what they sound like, we've got 'em.  Learning birdsong will be my mission for the rest of the nesting season.

Blog party done for another year

 It was a relaxed and cheerful blog party.  There were only 8 of us, but that made it easy.  I made pulled pork (slow cooked overnight, pulled apart with forks) and sirloin of beef, plus salads and eggs.  Then orange cake and chocolate cake, syllabub and strawberries, also local cheese.  Puds were dairy and gluten free, but I can always cater for any and all dietary requirements.  So much easier than it used to be and more necessary, as increasing numbers of people develop problems with various foods, as well as being vegetarian/vegan.  A friend posted photos on social media today, his partner is vegan and, whilst his lunch was vegetarian, hers was baked potato and baked beans and, honestly, that wouldn't make me very satisfied.  Stodge on stodge isn't very enjoyable.  I love vegetables, but the more obviously protein-rich vegan foods would be a problem, long term.  Tofu is deeply boring and tastes of nothing.  However much it's been marinated, I've found that I eat the veggies and push the tofu aside.  Dhal is good, but it's stodgy, to me, and I can't eat much of it.  I like beans and chickpeas, but once or twice a week at most.  Just adding an egg makes it all so much easier.  And I'm attempting to help my anaemia by adding red meat, which I'm enjoying, having rarely eaten it for months.  I don't know how I'd replace that iron quickly without supplements.  This is not to be critical of anyone in the least, I just wonder how someone who loves all food and cooking can possibly deal with having so many foods out of bounds.  An allergy forces it on you and a religious or cultural reason, that means you've never eaten a food, means you don't miss what you have never tasted.  

Anyway, I digress.  Zoe, Mike and Scout stayed overnight and we polished off most of the leftovers for lunch, apart from an unseemly amount of rice salad.  Now, I'm going to pretend to watch the Belgium/Iran match and root for Zoe's team.  But let the best team win, hey.

Keats had a point

 I went to an excellent lecture today about Japonisme, the influence of Japan on Europe from the second half of the 19th century onwards.  I already knew a fair bit on the subject, but this lecturer went beyond paintings to textiles, clothes, ceramics, furnishings and so on, which was really interesting.  She also went beyond the usual Impressionists and Post-Impressionists to the early years of the 20th century.  

There are things I used to enthuse about that I don't any more.  I do no gardening at all, for instance.  I haven't even bothered to plant up the tubs outside the house.  Bare earth or what has survived from last year and I don't care.  I'm sad that I don't care, but I can't pretend to.  My love of art, in all forms, has increased, however.  It's most of what I care about - obviously, not including people.  I want to go to art galleries, concerts, see and hear about beauty.  I don't mind at all if it's not, initially, my idea of beauty.  You can appreciate something that you don't necessarily like.  Only by seeing it or listening to it enough times to start to understand it, can you know if you do like it - or if it's any good.  Plenty of fashionable emperors are not wearing any clothes, but some of them are, resplendently.