Sunday, 26 November 2006

The family story – part 9 – the stepmother

My mother's stepmother is a shadowy figure to me. I don't even know her name. It is a sad story for all concerned.

My grandfather needed someone to look after his little girl. He had been shattered by the early death of his wife, and glad to have his mother and father-in-law to take in Jane and care for her. He adored his mother. When she died, he could not bear to have her hands stripped of the jewels she always wore and instructed that she should be buried with her rings on her fingers.

He always told Jane that he had remarried to make sure she was looked after. That is, if not for her he would not have saddled himself with a wife whom he did not love and who cared neither for him or Jane.

I suppose it seemed a sensible arrangement. She would have security and the status of marriage, and a pretty little daughter as ready-made family. He had a housekeeper and someone to care for him and his little girl. But it didn't work out. For one thing, Jane was unhappy and difficult. They did not make a good start, by dragging her away from her beloved grandparents, and she was not a sweet, biddable little thing. She was clever, independent and stubborn and she preferred books to dolls.

But it was not too bad for a time. Then, the stepmother, out of the blue, was left a large sum of money in a relation's will. The effect was to make her mean, resentful and positively unkind to Jane. I presume that this was because she was very angry at the realisation that she had married too soon, for security. If she had known and waited, she would have had plenty of money and not needed to marry at all - or could have married for love instead. Sadly, she took it out on Jane as well as her husband.

Mummy was always slightly claustrophobic. She said it was because her stepmother's favourite punishment was to shut her in a dark cupboard. She had to cycle to school every morning, whatever the weather, and remembered carrying her bike over snowdrifts - this was not unusual, in those days schools did not close for rough weather as they do now. But Jane had to bike home for lunch too, as her stepmother would not pay for a school meal, although ample housekeeping money was provided for her. A typical lunch was a small bowl of cornflakes and half a banana.

She used to lie in bed and hear them quarrelling. She used to analyse it. "Now, if he hadn't said anything when she said that, or if she had then said something neutral instead of shouting, the quarrel would never have happened." When I was grown up, I pointed out to her that the reason they quarrelled was that they wanted to, they were looking for an opening to pick a fight. She was surprised, she still saw it all with a child's eyes and had not realised that, but agreed I was right.

My grandfather was still away from home a good deal and Jane just had to put up with it. I suspect that she did so by despising her stepmother. By preferring intellectual pursuits and showing that she was cleverer and more sophisticated. It was the only way she could fight back.

She could only remember one occasion when they had laughed together. They had decided to make a lardy cake, a traditional Wiltshire delicacy made of bread dough enriched with lard, sugar and dried fruit. They spent a great deal of time and care on it, put it in the oven to cook and eagerly took it out and put it on a plate. Stepmother tried to cut it. She tried to chop it. She managed to saw it. It was rock hard and impossible to eat. They looked at each other and burst out laughing.

Stepmother's sister Elsie was a different person altogether, affectionate and welcoming. She lived on a farm in Devon and Jane went to visit during the summer holidays. She was fed on lots of good rich, if simple, food, and used to help with the dairy deliveries. Each customer had cream at the weekend and sent in her own jug with a muslin cover, weighed down with a decorative border of coloured glass beads. They knew which customer owned which jug and delivered it, full, with the milk which was ladled from a churn. The surplus cream was made into clotted cream, made by heating cream on a very low heat until it thickened, and sold in little pots.

Mummy, not surprisingly, idealised 'real' mothers. She felt, keenly, her unlucky status as the only child she knew without one. She was shocked when any of her friends misbehaved at home - how could they upset the person who loved them best? She didn't dare misbehave and mischief wasn't an option. Her father and she had a good relationship and they went walking and cycling together and had a shared love of music. She played the piano (self-taught, her parents would not pay for lessons) and he could play any wood-wind instrument. However, home life was not bearable for anyone and, after seven years of marriage, her father and she left to make a new home for themselves in Weymouth.

9 comments:

jen said...

oh, your poor mum. what a survivor. i cannot imagine mistreating a child. ever.

it completely baffles me.

Z said...

It's hard to believe isn't it. She was so little at the start of it all, and had been so much loved and kindly treated. It must have been bewildering to go to a completely different life - although, to be fair, her stepmother did make an effort at the start.

Penny said...

Wow. I can't wait for Part 10. Your poor Mom. I can't stand it when children are treated badly, especially after enduring such a loss. I am happy to read that her father took her away. What happened next??

Z said...

Hi Penny. Well, things do improve, but not for a while I'm afraid. The war comes next.......

PI said...

Oh dear - I'm sure I must be doing something wrong. It takes me ages to get in the comment box. What a sad story - a few years is almost a lifetime for child. It just doesn't work - marrying for anything but love. I hope it didn't do any lasting harm to your mother. We had to be tough in those days.

Z said...

I doubt if it's you, Pat, blame Blogger.

Children are amazingly resilient. She always said that the years she spent with her grandparents gave her the secure grounding she needed. She was, indeed, tough. And she wasn't physically abused - I think being shut in the cupboard once in a while was the worst of it.

Wendz in France said...

My scones are like that lardy cake.

Poor Jane - it tears me up when I hear of kids being ill-treated and I ache for the little girl she was, even though it's all over for her now.

Kids are so easy to love if you just let yourself go the whole hog.

Z said...

I can't make shortcrust pastry, but I can make scones.

You're right, she tried to overcome Jane and make her submit and she failed, but it was never necessary.

Penny said...

My Mom spent her first two years with loving grandparents and her first introduction to her father when she was nearly three was being yelled at and thrown into a wine-cellar.. it only got worse for the next dozen years for her. She swears by her grandparents first few years of influence. She said they taught her how to love, pray and forgive. And, thank God, because that tortured woman grew to have and raise me and raise me she did, without continuing her father's legacy and with her grandparents love.